Love and Marriage1.28.2015
Marriage Requires Work
In addition I would watch these "perfect" couples and I would envy them. And on the chance that I would see them fall apart I would be happy. I would be happy that they too were imperfect like me. That they also had pain and sorrow. Oh boy, do you see how wrong I was? I see it now. I was happy for someone else's pain or negative experiences and I think that is wrong. I don't want to be happy for someone else's sorrow.
This has been so tuff for me. One day I'm on cloud nine and the next day my husband and I don't agree and it's like the end of the world. I have found myself thinking on those days, "My marriage is lost, how can I go another day in the imperfection?" But for me, coming to terms that an amazing marriage is imperfect has helped and that there will be good and bad days. Something that has also helped on this journey for me is to realize that no marriage is perfect no matter how loving and selfless they are. And also that my marriage is my own. My marriage is not my neighbors and because of that I should not compare.
I am working on focusing on my own happiness and that's all that I should gauge my happiness on. I am focusing on me and what I can do to make my marriage better. Share your joys and triumphs in marriage. Fight for love. Fight hard.