Keepin' It Real: Be True to You10.17.2014
|Graphic provided by Alice and Ivory. It's available here. Isn't it lovely?|
I am going to start from the beginning. Starting as a normal insecure teenager, I felt like I had to act, talk, and be a certain way to be accepted. Sure I had my friends who knew me. But every once in a while I would be able to put on this face of who I thought I should be and I would make friends who in the end weren't really my friends. Looking back the problem was I was pretending to be someone I wasn't. After high school I transitioned into adulthood and some of those ideas of my self-image stuck with me.
With each year and as each life event has happened I have had to find who I was again. And in life this is going to happen often. We change grow and learn. As I began blogging about a year ago, I had to discover who blogging Natashia would be. How would the blogger version of me act? I saw other bloggers and their writing, personalities, photography, and even dress styles. It wasn't hard to follow people on instagram and think I, once again, had to act and be like them. And then something happened that has changed me.
After a conversation, I was habitually overanalyzing in my head. I felt exhausted with the negativity within my own mind and it hit me, it is awesome to be me. I am imperfect, silly, happy, fun, goofy, and that is me. I had created this idea of perfection that was damaging and negative to who I really was. So what if I didn't say what I thought others wanted me to? That isn't what matters. What matters is what I think about myself and that I am happy with who I am. And that person is me.
I am grateful that I have met other bloggers and creative who are awesome examples of being themselves. Thank you for being you. Your courage has given me courage to say, "Ok world, this is Natashia. Take it or leave it."
I am not really the Angelina Jolie sulky type. I stumble over my words and ramble often, so I am definitely not perfectly composed as I, for some reason, thought I should be.
I also learned that part of accepting who you are means accepting all of who you are. You have to accept your flaws. For me this has been really hard. I feel like I try to do things as perfectly as I can. But I am not perfect. I forget appointments, all the time actually. I say comments, sometimes without thinking them through. I am crazy, sloppy at times, loud, interrupting, perhaps a little too aggressive when passionate, short, in your face, and completely me. And while I am trying to be the best version of me possible and am constantly improving, I've decided not to tear myself apart anymore for my imperfections or the ways I act that I thought were imperfections. I have also embraced my positives. I am kind, patient, thoughtful, giving, emotional, empathetic, sensitive, funny, happy, positive, appreciative, strong, and loving.
|Some pictures taken by Heather Bliss Photography|
Part of my struggle was I didn't know my brand. At this moment in my life I am a wife and mother. I am religious and pray, everyday. I love health and fitness and feeling physically strong. I am creative and have no idea at the moment where to even start because I love so many aspects of creativity. I am hard working. I can be so silly at times that my kids giggle, their eyes widen, their lips smirk, and they say, "Mom you're funny." I give really good hugs. And this is me.
So lets have some fun. I am challenging you to pick 3-5 words that describe your brand. Who are you and what defines you? Seriously, I want you to get out a piece of paper, right now. Alright, did you do it? Ok now number it.
Ok now think. What words describe you in a nutshell. Here's my words for my brand.
1. Family loving
This journey has been taken by many, and maybe for some of you, you gained this confidence earlier. But for me accepting who I am as the blogger has given me greater confidence as a whole and it has been really liberating. There's something empowering saying, "Hey world and internet land, this is ME!". Its time to stop trying to be someone or something that you aren't. It's not only ok to imperfect, but its part of human nature. So let keep it real with ourselves. Be true to you and love yourself for who you are. Thanks for reading my thoughts and my story. Feel free to share yours. I wish you all the best weekend.